Am I defined by what I do? I'm wife, mom, teacher to my kids, Bible study leader, church member, and on.... But is that really who I am? Is this who God created me to be? Is this ALL there will be for me?
Don't get me wrong here - I absolutely love my life most days. My children are fabulous (albeit frustrating at times:-); my husband is the most longsuffering, patient man alive to have put up with all my baggage these 9 years (today!). But there is always this nagging little feeling, deep inside that says "You should be doing more. You *could* be doing more." What IS that? What do I DO with it?
Clueless as usual...but that was random thought #1 today.
Random thought #2 is this...Do *most* people have real friends, or are we a society lulled by acquaintanceships? Do we allow ourselves to be known, and to know others? For years, I have struggled with this. I so long to be *known*, to have the kind of friend I could call for no other reason than to vent about my day, or to share my excitement over the new books I bought for my kids. But I have yet to find that kind of friend. Maybe it's me - perhaps other people don't wish for an intimate friendship that doesn't seem to exist; Perhaps they already have it. Perhaps I'll never know.
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